I finished making this black dress - it took me quite a lot of time to make it. More time than I would like, actually. I guess it´s not a good thing that I want everything to be completed as soon as possible... most things need a lot of time to be finished. It´s similar with painting: I have to learn to make things slowly, be patient, pay attention to details. Sometimes I wonder if there is some point in the things I do and make. Am I doing it right? What´s the use of it all? What if I´m wasting my time on something? With sewing it´s a bit easier, of course, because I like that it´s practical and the result is useful usually. Mostly you also save money when sewing. But, isn´t sewing these dresses such a vain? After all, I don´t have many occasions to wear them... With painting and many other things I do, I´m sometimes quite unsure whether it´s good for something. I hope it is, at least for myself and my friends who like to look at the paintings.
I´m back from a great trip to my husband´s parents´ place. We visited our friends, who are artists - I got a great paper native scene our friend made, but I have to cut it out and stick together first. We went for a long walk in the freezy and snowy fields and forest, it was perfect. I saw a great czech movie, Happy end. I have never seen anything like it. The way this film is made is exceptional - the whole movie runs backwards (from the end of the film to the beginning), but there is also a narration, which makes it a completelely different logical story at the same time. It starts when the main character is killed (but he actually just starts to live...), because he murdered his wife, then you see him bringing the dead wife to life etc., back to the time when they first met at he end of the film. It´s very funny, perfectly made with attention to every detail (i.e. the dialogues in the film are spoken "backwards", of course, but they make sense "both ways" and are funny. I think I was laughing all the time while watching this - there are great jokes with food - you see people eat backwards - they pull the food out of their mouths, spit out backwards... just simple things, but so witty. When a baby is "born", they say thay lost the baby forever... and it´s thrue! I loved it. Very original movie.
I read an interesting interview yesterday, while waiting at the doctor´s (the magazine was there for the patients). It was a big interview with one of the most famous czech actresses/celebrities, mainly about children and marriage, but life generally. She has 6 children (two of them adopted); one of her children died of a rare illness as a baby. She´s married for the third time. I´m not her big fan (though I guess what she does in the theater is amazing), but whenever I read something she says, it´s really nice. She has extraordinary energy and humour. There was a lot about children... that it´s hard to care about them when they are 2 years old and are ill... but it´s even harder when they´re 20something and have girl/boyfriends. The life attitude is simply, no matter what you come into, you have to carry on and try your best at being possitive. The end of the article was quite moving (for me): "we all sometimes feel unloved, ugly, exhausted (or something like that), but you just have to push these thoughts away and smile like the bad things never existed" (loosely interpreted; I don´t remember it well). I hear similar things quite often, but I like that. You can probably listen to something over and over, if it makes you feel good (or better).
